Russell,

For what it's worth, you didn't see me hop out there and say anything at first. That's because I was trying to figure out what do. It seems terribly easy to predict earthquakes until you know in your heart that people could be hurt or die and then it gets really serious. I hope you never ever go there.

What you fail to recognize is that if I don't post something here, then I can't come along later and say, "Oh I got that one" because its not acceptable. If I don't get my record, then I can't get to the next place along the trail, that's the rules, plain and simple. I want to do this and make it work so one day I won't be here, but someplace else where it really matters. I don't care if its in some backwoods place in a foreign country as long as I can demonstrate this works and see it come to some good.

I'm sorry you're troubled, I didn't mean for this to happen in this way. But at least you're not living it, I am. It's like being a mother to a whole bunch of people and you want to put this big protective bubble around them, but you can't. So you go to bed and you pray night after night and you cry and you pray some more, and then the next day comes and goes. It's a long journey.

Petra